Tuesday May 26th

Went back for another session with my LP coach today :) She thinks my brain patterns are really stuck compared to many other people, so is happy to offer me more sessions :D

Was really good...we worked on my perfectionist patterns that seem to be holding me back a bit...and changed some bits of the LP, practising it in different situations. Then we did some hypnotherapy to try and work out where the perfectionism came from...as Gill thinks this is one of the main causes of my M.E.

Came out feeling amazing (this was about 5pm) and still feel amazing now (about 10pm) :D yay!!! maybe this time I've got it right!

Having a really good half term too...went to a friends BBQ sunday and to a friends to watch TV and eat ice cream yesterday :D

Will keep you updated

Rosie
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Sunday May 17th

Somethings definitely changed this weekend-I got through a half day of music college with a smile on my face, and didnt feel too bad afterwards! Usually I'd have fallen asleep on the train and woken up feeling awful...but I was fine :O Today I wasnt as brain fogged as usal, and managed to get a load of revision done for G.C.S.Es...I'm so scared!!! Had to use the LP a couple of times yesterday when first on the train as I began to feel the M.E tiredness setting in...and today during a walk down to my favourite field in the sun...but otherwise things have been good :D

Its feeling more like a natural brain pattern now, and less like something I have to try to do. Even if it doesn't cure me from M.E....its definitely helped to some extent, along with making me a generally more cheerful person. I have high hopes for a recovery over the summer holidays though! Have gone from about 70% to around 75%/80%....am improvement which I'm understandably chuffed with!

Am needing a bit more input with the process though, so am having a couple more lessons with my coach in the may half term. She's been so lovely and I'm so pleased that she's happy to help with this extra input.

Will write soon :)
Any feedback on good things about my blog/stuff you'd like me to include is welcome- rosiehelen@hotmail.co.uk

Rosie xxxxxxxxxxxxx

May 13th 2009

Sorry its been a while since I've written! Am struggling along with the LP...had started to notice some positive changes though :D I spoke to Gill on the phone yesterday...she gave me lots of help with the process again...and tried to explain to me how to cope through exams. Understandably exams have not been helpful when trying to stop an adrenaline cycle...and I've therefore found that my improvements seem to have come to a standstill. However this is probably because I've been overworking myself...and as soon as G.C.S.Es are over I will return to trying the lightning process, as I do believe it was having a positive effect on my health. Its a shame that G.C.S.Es are getting in the way!!
Good luck to anyone out there also trying the LP.
I'm off to revise! :D
Rosie
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8 days after LP

Yesterday I went back to see Gill for a follow up :) It was really helpful...we discovered that I've actually been introducing stress and adrenaline into the lightning process, by saying "stop" in a stressfull way and getting impatient with myself...so I must stop this =) She's also doing some hypnotherapy to work on some situations that I've been getting really stuck in! Found out that the man who did the LP with me thinks he's completely better now....and the woman who's been in a wheelchair for two years is walking and gardening...and has even been on her husband's exercise bike! Wow :O
So if they can do it using the LP then so can I! I'm going to need a bit more help than them, but its different for everyone.

Felt so much better and more confident after this session, walked up the hill from the train station, and went for another walk in the evening :) LP is much more enjoyable now.

Today I really struggled though. It seems harder in the mornings...and as I'm currently at school for 3/4 days I cant really do the LP apart from silently in my head...which is no-where near as powerful. Got home after school and got quite deeply into "the pit;" as I hadnt been able to do LP all day and M.E fatigue had me strong. However about half an hour later I picked myself up and used the LP to get myself back on track-something which im really proud of :) Went for a 15 minute walk in the rain with my dad, to prove to myself that I could do it :)!

So I'm working on it...its slow progress but Im getting so much better and I've just got to find a way to apply the process even when at school. I've seen the power of the process-every time I walk into Gill's house I've felt awful and come out feeling so much better...now I've just got to learn how to apply it consistently at home on my own.

Until tomorrow
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Rosie :)

Ps. Emails and Questions are still welcome: rosiehelen@hotmail.co.uk. Similarly if anyone who's done LP successfully has any advice I'd love to hear from you! xxxxxxxxxx

5 days after LP

What an emotional day! Felt pretty low and rough for most of this morning, and had to really work hard at the process at around lunchtime...as I realised that "the pit" had me really strong!

But managed to summon the strength to go shopping...and mum and I went shopping for about an hour and a half, which using the LP, I really enjoyed :D got some new clothes too :) Then I came home and taught a flute lesson....and for the first time EVER I was able to concentrate on the lesson and not worry about fatigue etc :D! After this did LP practise again with my dad, working on the things that got me stuck this morning...and then went fully energised for a 20 minute walk! Am still awake now :D

Lets hope this continues :D

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Rosie

Ps. If anyone wants to ask more questions about the LP or just wants to chat....my msn is rosiehelen@hotmail.co.uk
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4 days after LP

Yesterday I had music college, which is usually a huge huge struggle and leaves me feeling awful! I cant say it was easy to apply the Lightning Process, but it did make it slightly better to get through the day. I managed to focuss on my music lessons more :) Will keep practising the Lightning Process! I dont think I've been using it very consistently, so havent seen any major changes...however I WONT give up!

Today I was at home all day, so had time to work on the process about 70 to 80 times. Dad's been helping make sure I wont give up and I did it quite sucessfully to get rid of the brain fog as a result of being so busy yesterday. Have noticed that for the last few days my digestive system's been working better (yes you really did want to know that :P!) Managed to go for two short 15 minute walks, and did a 30 second run just to prove to myself that something was changing. I've noticed I've been a lot happier after the LP!

To anyone out there reading this blog and thinking of trying the Lightning Process...you've GOT to be committed! It is hugely hard work, and you've got to believe in it 100% I've got upset a number of times and wanted to give up, but I wont! I'm sure I'm on to something here, that will eventually let me recover from M.E!

Pretty tired now so will write again tomorrow....

Rosie xxxxxxxx

2 days after LP

Sorry I didnt post yesterday...didnt have much to tell you :) Today I did a full day at school :O! It wasnt by choice, but I had ICT Coursework which I absolutely had to finish by the end of today or I wouldn't get entered for the exam, so I had to spend extra time in school. Was surprised that I didnt actually feel too awful, though almost collapsed when I got home! Must remember not to do too much too soon!
Rosie xxxxxxxxxxx